If I had to sum up my purpose and being with only one word, I'd choose genuine. I'm genuine in whatever it is I decide to do. Whether I'm being kind to someone, or having a serious argument or just chilling out with a few friends, no matter what I do, I give 100% of myself and own it whole-heartedly and sincerely. There are no hidden agendas as far as my character is concerned.
I've more than adequately proven what I am about to myself and those that I care about, so my sincerity is always from the heart. But, and I use that term cautiously, I can't always say the same for those who interact with me.
I've posted a while ago how some people mistake your kindness for being a damn fool, and I feel the need to reiterate my thoughts again, because recent events have presented itself to me. Basically stated, I'm going through some changes, y'all, and I've got to comment about it.
Make no mistake, the world we live in today is horrible. Oh sure, there are good things I can point out about the great things in life, but what I've been seeing recently, the bad seems to outweigh the good. I've gotten to the point now in my life that when I meet a person and we don't click right away and I feel an undercurrent of negativity, this usually means I'm not feeling this individual and I have no problem letting him or her know that I want no parts of them in my life, and I keep it moving. And I remember the times when I would have felt a bit apprehensive of even telling a person straight up how I felt about him/her. Now, I really don't give a damn anymore.
It seems that lately I run across people who are determined to piss me off and step on my toes any way they can, and when I respond in kind, all of a sudden, they become a bit shocked that I behaved in such a manner because usually I'm nice and sweet. Some think their ass is the only ass that can be kissed, and I'm quick to let them know, I've got one too and feel free to indulge.
Normally, I would never use my blog to post my anger, but I feel the need to do so today. This is how I'm feeling, and personally, I don't care, one way or the other, if it's not what some may want to read. I'm human and that's all the explanation I need to give. At the end of the day, I'm sick and tired of fake ass people who are only out for themselves and think they are going to use me to get what he or she wants, and that behavior will not be tolerated nor accepted period!
I find that I am not alone in being genuine. There are tons of genuine individuals who have their agendas and proposals waiting in the wings to lash out and do whatever it is they need to do to make themselves feel better. Some feel it's all about them. . .well, I'm here to tell ya, guess again, because I don't think so! In fact, I know so. This may sound a bit cliche, but Rodney King said it best when he said, "can't we all just get along?" Six words that are so simple, and yet, so hard to put into action for many. That's because there are those who don't really care who or what they hurt, cause they live in the "me, me, me" factor!
Bottom line, we all must do what we have to do in order to survive this life. Everyone is a user to a certain degree. We have to use each other to get ourselves to the next level, and I get that, but it's the tactics in which some go about it that I call into question! There's a way to work with a person to help yourself out, and then there's a way to fuck over a person to get what you want~~that, my friends, is not cool by any stretch of the imagination. If I was only in the writing business for myself, I'd still be on the sidelines watching the literary gamers get their writing on. My talent would still be a mystery to the rest of the world, and only those precious few that I allowed in my creativity world would know of my true passion. So don't get it twisted. If I only cared about my books, I'd never have a favorite authors list, and I damn sure wouldn't be promoting other indie authors, if I only cared about myself.
As I mentioned above, I'm genuine in everything I do, and anyone who knows me knows that! If I offered to assist you, and I gave you my help, I did it 100% without bullshit, and more importantly, without any hidden agendas. I don't steal others ideas, and I most certainly wouldn't steal another author's stories. And to prove that, when I am working on my own novels, I don't read anyone's work, including those well-known authors. What I come up with is strictly from my own thoughts, and I don't allow outside influences to cater to my creativity. That's how serious I am about doing what I do! I want my readers to experience my flow, not the flow of someone else because that's not me, and I'm all about producing my best work that I know how.
So, although I may not say anything about what I see some doing, don't think for one minute that you're getting away with it. I know exactly what you're doing, and you know who you are! Perhaps if you worked on doing you, instead of trying to mess me over, maybe good things would come to you. But people who are only in life for themselves always think that, and isn't it funny how they are the first ones to ask why when something goes wrong in their lives? Take a good look in the mirror and maybe the image staring back at you will reveal the answer.
And many of my readers ask me where did I come up with the story for Silent Knight? If you read this latest blog post, do you even have to wonder? My main character, Clarence Knight, goes through a whole lot of changes and discovers that the people he thought were his friends just might not be. Everything isn't always black and white. Everything isn't always cut and dry, but we walk through life with blinders on, and we have no one to blame but ourselves for that. Clarence owned up to his responsibilities, just as I have been made to do.
Just because I don't always voice my opinions, doesn't mean I don't have any. Just because I may appear as though I don't see what people are doing, doesn't make me blind. And just because you may vocalize your wrong doing so openly, doesn't mean I don't hear it! I've said it before and I'll say it again, be careful of what you say and what you do to others, because it will come back to bite you in the ass. Don't believe me, read my latest novel, Silent Knight! If that doesn't make you a believer, I don't know what will! Life imitates art~~don't forget that! There's a lot of truth to my latest novel, that I witnessed first hand!
When you see misery coming, bitch slap the hell out of her! Until next weekend. . .
Kimberly Ranee Hicks, Author/International Poet
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