Saturday, June 23, 2012

Feel the Vibrations. . .

What would life be like if there weren’t any conflicts?  What if everything went your way all the time without any problems?  What if others could view the world from your eyes?  What if you were happy all the time?  What if you were so wealthy that the word ‘broke’ pertained to a piece of glass?  What if you never experienced pain or sorrow?  What if those you loved returned it to you in kind without any hidden agendas?  What if your friends were true all the time?  What if your life was perfect in every sense?

If all of the above were true, you’d have a great novel perhaps, an outstanding fantasy maybe, but you’d also have a very plain and boring existence in the real world.  How would you be able to measure success, if you never experienced any failure?  Why would you want to succeed, if you didn’t know what failure is?  Why bother to get to the next level, when there isn’t another level to strive for?

As I mature, I am truly beginning to understand what the meaning of life is—or shall I say the meaning of my life.  What used to seem so important doesn’t really mean a damn thing to me now.  Life hasn’t always been good.  Life hasn’t always been kind.  In fact, there are many areas of my life where it truly sucked and I didn’t wish to reside in this world anymore.  And please don’t tell me that you have never thought of ‘ending it all’!  I sometimes tried to imagine what the world would be like if I weren’t in it—just being human I suppose.  I guess that’s why I’m a writer.

My level of sensitivity is much greater than the average person.  My senses are so keen that it frightens me sometimes.  I’m not psychic by any stretch, but I just know things.  Perhaps it’s because I pay attention to detail more than most, and from being able to do that, I am more inclined to see what others pretend they don’t.  Having this third eye, if you will, has been a blessing and a curse.  If I had to choose which was greater, I’d choose curse.  It’s one thing to know when bad things are going to happen to others, but it’s an entirely different matter when you know these things are going to happen to yourself.

Being in corporate America for so many years, I remember the days when I thought that cut-throat life was the bomb.  People were handling business and doing what needed to be done for the greater good of the company, or at least, that’s the bullshit they want you to buy into—and at one time, I was sold.  Workers got promoted for a job-well-done and pats-on-the-back for going above and beyond and taking one for the team.  It made you feel great, it made the company feel great and helped the economy flourish—because let’s face it, when your company is doing well, and they crack off a little bonus to you—you in turn extend that to others—hence, that’s what ‘used’ to make the world go round, right?

Well. . .that was then, and this is now!  One thing that still remains true is by working to pay your bills and having a little extra to buy things you want versus what you need, still helps the economy grow, but what happens when the job turns its back on you?  How does the economy flourish then?  If I’m not working and spending money at your establishment, eventually you will lose your job and so on and so forth.   Unfortunately, that’s our world today.  It’s not about helping each other so we may continue to strive toward the next level, but it’s about doing each other in, may the best man win, only the strong will survive, and it’s all-about-me attitude.  You know, the ‘I’ve-got-mine-now-you-get-yours-the-best-way-you-can’ and who the hell gives a shit who it hurts, right?

Today, we live in a world of master bus drivers.  You need not study for a learner’s permit.  You don’t even have to show up to take a driver’s test.  In fact, the only skills you must possess to drive this massive vehicle is making sure you put yourself first!  These drivers are so masterful you never even knew the bus had run you over and left you as flat as a piece of paper.  By the time it registers what just happened, it’s way too late!  Bus drivers today navigate that big ole bus through the slimmest of areas.  This bus can fit into cracks and crevices you didn’t know had formed.  The roar of the engine revs up in your dreams and causes you to have night tremors.  And the funny thing is, usually buses are pretty huge, but this is one vehicle that comes in different sizes, shapes and colors—it’s like a transformer—transforming your entire life within mere seconds.

Have you ever heard the expression, “how do you stop a train?”  Well, if you don’t know the answer by now, I hate to burst your bubble, but it’s impossible to stop it, if you’re not the conductor, and even he can’t stop it at will—but the question should be when did you first feel the vibration on the track or when did you first hear it’s whistle in the distance?  The thing is everyone was born with a third eye, but most people keep a cover over it.  You know that voice that tells you danger is lurking, but you choose to ignore it.  People in law enforcement call that a gut feeling.  We’ve all had those moments, but what’s important is what do you do when your third eye or your gut is telling you something?

If you still have a job, as you already know, consider yourself fortunate, but please beware of the buses and trains.  There are many drivers and conductors waiting to do you in so they can get all the damn glory—each soul they claim is a step up on the ladder rung.  It isn’t enough to just cause much conflict in your day, these drivers want to torture you, and if you don’t start seeing and hearing what is going on around you, you will become a victim of vehicular homicide in the emotional sense.  Stop pretending that everything is fine in the workforce.  Ask some of your coworkers who have become casualties.  Ask your neighbors whose homes have ‘foreclosure’ signs on the front lawn. 

I’m a firm believer in not dwelling on things I cannot change, and trust me that has been one tough lesson to grasp, but I am proud to say I’ve mastered.  When you see the changes happening around the workplace, don’t put your blinders on.  When you hear that soft whistling in the background, don’t assume it’s the hum of your cell phone!—It’s the train coming and it’s gaining speed. 

If you want to know what a train sounds like, take a listen:  changes—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; moving forward—usually without you)—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; restructuring—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; corporate takeover—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; cutbacks—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; downsizing—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; potential layoffs—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; writing down your job duties—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; pay freezes—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; pay cuts—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; forced retirement—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; early retirement—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a; new health benefits (great for employer—extremely deadly to employee)—chug-a-chug-a-chug-a-chug-a!!!   Was that train loud enough for you?  How many times have you felt those vibrations and chose to ignore them?

If you want to know what a bus sounds like, take a listen:  Due to recent cuts, the remaining workers begin to turn on each other (the Lord of the Flies Syndrome)—vroooooooom-vrooooooooom; If you feel like a pair of eyes or possibly several pairs of eyes are watching your every move—vroooooooom-vrooooooooom; Being clocked even more than usual by your coworkers—vroooooooom-vrooooooooom; Trusting your coworker not to reveal to management your secret of talking bad about another coworker—vroooooooom-vrooooooooom; Monitoring your emails more closely than in the past—vroooooooom-vrooooooooom; Come review time, you have more negative comments than you do positive (just an excuse so the job can tell you there will not be raises this year)—vroooooooom-vrooooooooom; You cheated the clock a little and suddenly you find yourself sitting before your supervisor wondering how in the world they found out—vroooooooom-vrooooooooom!!!  Before you get thrown under the bus, remember the revving of the buses’ engine.

Sure, you can’t stop what your job does to you, but you can be more alert and aware of the situations around you.  When you see security or a rep from your Human Resources Department at your co-workers desk and there’s a box sitting atop of it with your co-worker placing their personal belongings inside, trust me, the HR Dept. isn’t taking your co-worker to lunch!  Turning a blind eye and thinking you’ve dodged a bullet is a person living in a fool’s paradise!  Wake Up and start paying attention!!  The red flag is waving high! 

If you thought the only traffic you had to deal with was during the rush hour, I’m here to tell you, there’s a whole other set of traffic you haven’t even begun to navigate through!  Do YOU know who your bus driver and train conductors are?  If you think joining aboard those vehicles will save you from becoming a victim, guess again!  Eventually those drivers will run you down and leave you for dead!  Remember, even the best drivers have accidents!  Don’t get run over!

Blog Mistress:  Kimberly Ranee Hicks, Author/Poet
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